Defense mechanism

I think everybody is familiar with defense mechanisms. The idea of it is like this when a certain agitated feeling comes up it’s either you put up a strong guard or a strong mechanism or you put yourself at the most vulnerable point.

There are people who easily see through others who act on their defense mechanisms like most of our parents. They know something is up with us at some certain points in life but they keep it to themselves and indirectly help us move through it. And that’s getting way beyond my point…I just felt like making a metaphor haha.

Last night, after quite a loooong time (say 2 weeks?), I turned on the TV to watch the news. As expected, all the news was about the recent catastrophes. What I didn’t expect was that I became scared shitless and paranoid.

Who isnt? Well probably there are those who aren’t like in some unaffected parts of the Philippines. But sooner they will be too.

I kept thinking about what we are all going through. Luzon seems to be in a very tough condition and with the coming unpredictable storms, recovery will be slower. When Metro Manila was steadily working out its recovery from Ondoy, our brothers and sisters from the other Luzon regions were badly devastated by Pepeng. What a twosome. We’re a waterworld.

I was also thinking of those who’re getting loans from government agencies and how tiresome it is (especially when they’ve claimed it and then the next problem would be how to pay it).

Another thought was Laguna De Bay which is a great water area, here, down south. The government proposal on putting up a sort of appendage from the lake to the Manila Bay through Paranaque seemed to be a good idea. But that seems impossible because of the geography of Paranaque and a back-flow from Manila Bay is possible.

My thoughts were endless while watching what was on TV. I was so distracted from studying.

The news is horrifying. Especially when newscaster, Ted Failon would go “Dalawang bata sa Benguet–PATAY!” It gives off this horrifying feeling that death will come sooner than expected in our conditions now.

The idea of being a misplaced person because of the recent deluge is heart-aching– having put up your life in a home for years only to be shattered at an instant. Now, you’re in ULTRA or any evacuation center with thousands of other misplaced people. That feeling…gah. No matter how many you are huddled together in evacuation centers, it still would feel lonely–misplaced.

While the News beat reporter was showing parts of the still flooded Pasig area. my mom asked me a question with a very obvious answer (while playing RC): “May baha pa rin? How come?”

I answered, “Syempre, pano matatanggal yan kung clogged yung drainage sytem, the garbage that was accumulated during the flood is like super.”

Mom: “Yan kasi, dapat papel nalang ginagamit.”

Me: “Mom, when you use paper you’ll lose trees.”

Mom: “Eh bakit ang plastic san ba galing?”

Me: “Sa trees din? But the thought of cutting them–landslide?”

Mom: “Sabagay. I think they should find a good solution for recent problems and make plans for the future.”

I was thinking: When you cut trees, you can plant new ones but they take a lot of time to grow.

Then I said “I know a solution!”

Mom: “What?”

Me: “Two-child policy”

Mom: “You’re so close to the point, really. Verrrry close.”

Me: “I have a point you know. When you’ve got 2 kids, you’ll lessen consumerism–most of the non-biodegradable stuff. Therefore, lessening garbage and threats of nature.”

Mom: Whatever.

Me: “How about one child?”

You see, that’s defense mechanism. A VERY LONG ENTRY ABOUT IT.

~ by MichAn on October 9, 2009.